I'm in a funk this week.
Maybe it's the weather, which today kind of reflects my mood--cloudy and dark.
Maybe it's the start of school which brings all kinds of new adjustments.
Maybe it's the fact that there's a huge, gaping hole in our house left by one member of the family who's away right now.
Oh, heck, it could be anything from the fact that I went a shade darker with my hair last week and I'm still adjusting to the new look . . . to the eight (count 'em! EIGHT!) bottles of wine we just received from a guest to a party B and I are hosting NEXT WEEK. Go figure.
I just don't know what to do with it (both the hair and the wine).
But probably my funk is from the 29 hours I spent with Abby in the hospital on Monday and Tuesday and the agony (for me) that is waiting and the four doctors that got involved with her case and took what seemed like forever to decide that what they thought she had wasn't what she had at all and just go home you'll be fine.
What do I do with it all?
What do I do with uncertainty? (Will Mr. Wine Guy turn his nose down at my humble home and the food I offer to him next week?)
What do I do with frustration? (Is Abby's arm really O.K.?)
What do I do with just feeling down on a cloudy, dark, rainy day? (Is curling up under the covers an option?)
This verse just keeps coming to my mind: "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God. . . ." (Psalm 45:5)
Put your hope in God, Shelly. When the deep waters seem to rise. When frustrations come. When you're tired and weary. Just put your hope in God because He is so faithful.
As B pointed out to me today, we prayed that God would heal our daughter and, despite a lot of waiting around and frustration, it very much looks like He answered our prayer. That's what I need to focus on today.
Oh, and I need to focus on cooking something for Fabulous Friday Food tomorrow. Are you linking up with me??