Yesterday my sweet husband, who appears to be my biggest fan, said to me, "Are you ever going to write anything again? Your fans are waiting."
He might have also mentioned that people might be thinking that all I ever write about is Downton Abbey. Alright, so I may have a slight obsession, and so I may have had a hard time getting over . . . you know, that thing that happened on the finale . . . but Downton Abbey is certainly NOT the only thing I think about.
In fact, if you scroll down my Home page here, you'll see that I also think about food and sex. So there.
[Oh gosh, the very fact that I just wrote that sentence proves that this blog has seriously lost its focus. Not that it ever really had a focus, but any semblance of a niche audience--the one thing the "experts" tell you you NEED to have a successful blog--is now completely gone and the only people left reading here are old friends from high school and my family.
Thank you to those of you who have stuck around.]
And to add to the schizophrenic nature of this blog, I thought today I'd just write a random list of things I've been doing/thinking about. Because that will really bring this whole blog thing into focus.
So here goes.
1. There's a storm a-brewin' today. No, not in my soul or in my marriage or anything like that. Really, a storm is coming. They say we're supposed to get nine inches of snow today. If the screen door on my back porch is any indication, it's true. That baby is slapping so hard right now, I know something is up with the weather.
And while I'm talking about the weather (always the best way to start a blog post, don't you think?), may I take this opportunity to shout out to the Lord that I'm so DONE with winter? Sorry, Lord, I know you might have something to say about it, but if you wouldn't mind just shutting the whole thing down after this, I'd really appreciate it.
Winter is so overrated.
2. I'm an aunt again! My younger sister had a baby one week ago today, and even though we live 900 miles apart, we're all very excited up here in the north. Little Gracie is going to be a huge blessing to our family, I just know it. She already is!
A couple of fun things about this little one and the makeup of our family. First, her next oldest cousin on this side of the family is Julia, who just turned 15. Fifteen years since we've had a baby in our family! And second, Gracie is the sixth granddaughter for my parents. Six granddaughters! (No grandsons.) Isn't that great?!
We're thrilled, as you can tell by my use of exclamation points.
3. Kate has been accepted to an internship program in Washington D.C. for next fall, and, while I'm thrilled for the opportunity for her, it's a little hard to get my brain around the fact that she'll be so far away.
I know what you're thinking: Wait. Isn't she in college? Aren't you used to not having her around? Well, yes and no. She is in college . . . eight blocks away. And, no, we didn't necessarily do that on purpose--she made her own decision about where to go to school. It has been amazing to be able to send her to school, let her be independent, but still be able to deliver food to her on occasion and get to know her friends. Even so, I know it's time for me to let go, really, and get used to not having her so nearby. It's going to be great for her and so good for me.
But I've been thinking about how much I'm going to miss her.
4. Lately I've realized that my life is entering a new phase, which is both strange and good at the same time. Strangely good? Strange goodness? I don't know what you want to call it, but it sure is different. For one thing, our house is so quiet. With two girls in college and one who is busy with the school's spring musical, it's pretty much just me and the dog hanging out here during the day. (Except for Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings when I teach my class.)
(Any burglars reading my blog right now, you know when to strike.)
The other thing that's really different (and you moms of young kids can just look away for a second so you don't hate me) is that I'm spending lots and lots of time alone. It's weird. After all those years of kids hanging on my leg or needing lunch money or asking for rides, nobody seems to need me much any more. Like I said, two are gone and one is really, really busy.
It feels like there's something coming, a change of some sort, but I don't know what it is just yet.
5. Speaking of change . . . I've been thinking about changing the look of my blog. I've loved the design, but I've had it for about three years, maybe longer, and I'm getting kind of tired of the boring green sides. I'm ready for something fresh.
What do you think?
6. I haven't written about this yet, and I'll probably write more about it soon, but I have a birthday coming up in a couple of months. It's a birthday that I should be looking forward to, like a milestone, but instead it feels like more of a millstone. Around my neck. And I hate it with every fiber of my being.
There. I said it. It's out there. Maybe I can write more about it now. For later.
And there you have it. My six random thoughts for a Tuesday.
I'm going to go see if I can find my snow shovel because it seems I am going to need it.
What are you up to today?